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Breathwork Workshop Quotes

“I assumed that I would have to face my abusive childhood. But what happened instead was that the breathwork provided a very powerful boost which projected me up into that very beautiful place inside. While 'up' there I experienced the being in and then the separating from the inner light. I found after doing breathwork that my life was lighter and I felt much more in touch with a strong spiritual power that I suppose has always been there.”

 

 

“For me, breathwork was an unforgettable, unbelievable experience. I got to genuinely look at the issues I've had with my parents, particularly my mom, and things became so much clearer, and it was a cleansing experience to be able to look at my demons without pain. And it felt so freeing afterwards to be able to allow myself to feel the feelings that I've tried not to feel for so long, because it's so painful. I will do it again - I really love the experience of being with people who have the same interest of facing themselves and not being afraid. I loved it.”

 

 

“What I experienced in the workshop was pretty phenomenal actually. First of all, I want to say that I really liked the way it was presented and I felt really comfortable expressing and bringing up any material that I might have. That's extremely important to me, because if I don't feel safe and I don't feel I can express what I want, then there is no point for me in attending a workshop like this.”

 

 

“For me, it was a very intense experience... but the results afterwards made me feel happy... I've been working on a relationship and we're really making a lot of headway with the relationship... When I talked to my partner about it, I said "since I did the Holotropic Breathwork workshop, it seems that my anger has been a lot more in control," and he agreed with that.”

 

 

“I've done the breathwork 4 times, and each time I was totally amazed at what happened. It seems to me that the mind is truly huge, and most of the time I experience just the tip of the iceberg. Holotropic breathing pushes me off into the water, and not only do I not drown, but I learn that the water itself is me. As I do the breathwork repeatedly, I am learning how to be comfortable in the water rather than crouching on the tip of the iceberg and shivering. I think the breathwork is powerfully helpful in my struggle to become who I am.”

 

 

“If I had a way to describe it, it would be "Beautiful, just absolutely beautiful." ...All I know is that it took me to another place, where I left out of there feeling good about myself, and I worked through some stuff... It gave me a special feeling... I'm so thankful that I did it... I found out what was bothering me... I came out and I just felt relaxed; I didn't feel the pressure in my head anymore.”

 

 

“Holotropic Breathwork is not mysterious. What a wonderful opportunity to feel and express one's feelings in a safe place. Feeling your feelings without censoring or defending yourself from yourself simply feels good...Like moving rusty gears on a bicycle, the breathwork allowed me to go forward into my daily existence without getting stuck or stopped by uncomfortable emotions. As a non-chemically induced form of therapy it provides an easy transition and integration of an experience of heightened awareness into the day to day.”

“Being separated from my mother at age 5 for several months was a major trauma blocking me from living my life fully. During the breathwork session, I was able to return to my memory of her and grieve the loss and feel the powerful feelings of love I had repressed for so long.”

“Because of a difficult past and a difficult situation that I must now tolerate, I have been carrying around a lot of pity for myself. In the session, I found myself crying a lot, and I believe that it released that unpleasant burden. Since then, though it didn't happen all at once, I have been feeling much stronger and more capable of acting on my own behalf.”

“I started thinking about my brother who died in a swimming accident at age 19. I found myself wanting to take his place, and I felt myself in the water, then later on in the hospital bed in a coma, and later on in the coffin looking out at everybody - it was an extremely intense experience for me to do this - it was something I had thoughts about at different times but I had never emotionally experienced what I really thought and felt about him and my mother. I felt a lot of relief afterwards, and I felt a release from the guilt of not being there for him and not being there for my mother while she was visiting him in the hospital.”

“I was very close to my brother growing up, but for the last ten years he has closed me out of his life, and I despaired of ever reconciling with him. During the breathing I had an image of him being in a lot of pain and needing contact. I called him the next week, and in the midst of an unrelated conversation, he referred to the issue that had been bothering him all this time, and we were finally able to resolve it. I'm also experiencing a significant shift in how I'm relating to my mother.”

“I have asked myself more than once why I kept returning to go to such dark places. I now think I know and it's because of you and the good people coming to the sessions. For the whole day at Breathwork, I don't have to worry about who I am or that I am depressed and must hide it from everyone. It is the only time I feel like I can just be myself. On top of that, it's in a wonderfully loving and supportive atmosphere. I don't think I find that feeling anywhere else in my life. Thanks a million for doing what you do so well!”

“Each breath was the fuel for my soulsearching journey. It felt great. Like a plant needing water, each breath provided life. I experienced my beginning and ending again and again. At end, there was peace.”

“I began attending 'Breathwork' because I was consumed with feelings of self-hatred. I felt hopeless, stuck, and depressed. I did not realize that suppressed childhood traumas were controlling my current behaviors, thoughts, and reactions. Through the breathing sessions I was able to relive these traumas and truly feel, express, and release the grief and anger that were buried deep within me. Instead of meeting with the abuse, rejection, and criticism that surrounded me and permeated these experiences when I was a child, the facilitators and other participants of the workshops allowed me to 'do it again' in an extremely nurturing atmosphere, filled with genuine support, caring, and acceptance. As a result, I am beginning to value myself, and to regard life as something to be embraced with joy, rather than endured in pain.”

“I would like to thank you both for your dedication to Holotropic Breathwork. As you know, I have been in and out of therapy for the past seven years and have not made the progress that I have in the past few months doing Holotropic Breathwork. Because you have provided a "Safe Container," I have felt secure in allowing the process to take on a life of its own and to have the freedom of exploring the very essence of my spiritual being. This tool has literally changed my life! Where I was once closed to the world I am now very much open. I am able to let people get closer to me — sharing some of my most deepest and darkest secrets. My senses have been heightened beyond my wildest imagination — it is like awakening from a deep sleep. I can see colors crystal clear instead of through a film of black and white ... I can hear nature awakening to each new day ... I can taste the nurturing fruits of the earth ... I can smell the aroma of blossoming spring flowers and freshly brewed coffee ... I can feel the softness of my bedding at night, and the embracing arms of friends. It is so wonderful to be alive! Thank you both for being courageous enough to go through your own process for without it you would never have been brought to this place of being of service to others. I don't think I can ever thank you enough for all you have given to me!”

“My experience with Holotropic Breathing has been holistic with life-changing awarenesses. Holistic in terms of its effectiveness in the physical, emotional (psychological) and spiritual realms. I am transformed from a sickly, fearful, faith-lacking being (that my belief system pretends I am) into a powerful, bold, spiritual being that God knows me to be. True reality comes into focus and distorted 'images' are no longer needed. Breathing is the vehicle that takes me to this place of remembrance. It is as if I awaken to hear Spirit remind me of everything that I had forgotten or pushed aside so that Ego may reside. I cannot wait to start breathing because my body, mind and spirit want to be 'set free' once again. The loving touch of Spirit takes me to places I've been and will be, all with the assurance that life is pure energy, and God rests in the midst of that energy. The Breath is Blessed.”

“I feel so much stronger physically, psychologically, emotionally and spiritually as a result of having attended Holotropic Breathwork Seminars for the last two years. I've learned, through the breath, how to access, trust and utilize an inherent wisdom I was not aware of before. I was always searching for a way to transcend the pain of having to live with Fibromyalgia and Chronic Depression. Instead, I found a way to work with it. I've learned that there is always a little darkness in the light and a little light in the darkness and, most importantly, I'm finally o.k. with that. Holotropic Breathwork Seminars have been, for me, the safest environment to allow both the dark and light aspects of myself full expression without the fear of punishment or judgment. I believe the gradual integration of these two aspects of myself are leading me towards true wholeness.”

“Approximately a month before attending this particular Breathwork, I had started to struggle with the idea that I did not have control over my drinking. Although I had been drinking for the past 25 years, I always told myself I had control over it. Then, for some reason, I felt it was time to try to "cut down." In trying to cut down, I found myself drinking more than ever and getting more and more frustrated with it. A friend of mine had been attending NA meetings and because of the positive change I saw in her, I decided to attend the meetings with her. I went twice as a "visitor" without admitting that I was an addict or saying that I would be willing to give up drinking altogether. The day after the second NA meeting, I attended a Breathwork workshop. While going through the breathing process, my legs started getting numb and as I got scared, a voice (my voice) told me not to be scared, to let go, and to give control over to God. The numbness got so intense that it felt as though I had no legs at all, but I worked through the fear by letting go and repeating the words, "you don't need to have control, trust God and it will be okay, you don't need to be afraid." I got through the process fine and my legs, of course, were there and back to normal. At first, I thought what I addressed was an ongoing numbness problem I had been experiencing for the past year or so. I had been experiencing panic attacks from the fear of the numbness and thought the process brought me through that fear and let me know that I didn't need to panic, that I could trust God and everything would be okay. As the day went on, though, I started thinking about alcohol and what it does. My thoughts turned to the numbness and I put the two together - alcohol numbs you. I then started thinking of what I had heard/read at the NA meetings - that the only way to overcome your addition is to admit that you are powerless over your addiction, to believe and trust in a Power higher than yourself, and to make the decision to turn your will over to that Higher Power (to let go and let God). The bells went off in my head because I felt that was exactly what I went through in the Breathwork. I felt that I had actually experienced feeling the addiction (numbness), trusting in God and turning my will (control) over to God. Needless to say, by the end of the workshop I had made the decision that I did not want to take another drink. I admitted my addiction, that I had no control over the addiction, and that I was turning it over to God. I will continue to attend NA - and this time with full intentions. For the first time, there is no doubt in my mind that I want to stop drinking - totally, and I believe with the combination of NA and Breathwork, I can finally do it. I am very thankful for the light this experience has brought into my life and am very excited about the road ahead of me. I'm still buzzing... i was love, color, music... it was timeless and spaceless. at virtually any moment i felt as if i might actually become my true consciousness... i may have wanted it too much. I was landscapes. fields, hills, beaches... the beautifully wild black mustang was me! there was fire and coldness... tunnels and overwhelming sexual energy. i'm convinced that my partner was a vital variable in the exploration. i've only just scraped the surface... i've carried this power (exceptional feelings of love) into this whole week! i've been larger than who i am normally... and let's not forget what maslow said concerning normalcy. "it's a psychopathology of the average" none of the people i meant this past week-end were average... the courage to trust their inherent potential and to explore their naturalness was tremendously uplifting for me... thanks to ted and yourself again. build it and they will come:):):)”

“I chose Holotropic Breathwork as a means to impact the multiple food and environmental allergies which I've experienced for years. My practitioners over the years have included chiropractors, acupuncturists, nutritionists, kinesthesiologists, homeopaths, psychotherapists and wholistic and traditional physicians including immunologists and allergists, but I was drawn to Holotropic Breathwork because none of these modalities could lessen my symptoms. I hoped that my condition was psychosomatic, as I proved to be allergic to any supplement, homeopathic remedy or drug generally administered to patients with my condition, and I considered that my last recourse toward healing was to jog some hidden trauma held in my body which could be influencing my stress levels and compromising my immune system. I sought Holotropic Breathwork after becoming familiar with Stanislav Grof's The Healing Potential of Non-Ordinary States of Consciousness, and after speaking with Ted, who shared his personal healing experience, I was further convinced of the potential of the process. I generally remain detached from any trauma I revisit during the breathwork, although I scream, cry, kick, and experience energy surges which cause my body to vibrate or jerk. Often I feel fascinated while engaged in the process, but I rarely experience anything visual, nor can I interpret even the most overt of my reactions. Unlike many of the participants, I have no idea of where I am as I journey. Several sessions have led me to investigate increasingly deeper levels of consciousness, which I begin to access almost immediately once the session begins. Often I work with David, whose inherent ability to locate and release trauma stored in the body has initiated some of my most profound experiences. I've learned to trust that I've entered into a process which appears to take me where I need to go, because I've now begun to experience episodes where I can eat for up to one month without allergic reactions. Recently I entered the process feeling despondent, as there was literally nothing I could eat without precipitating a reaction, and I was fatigued, anxious, and depressed. When I arrived at home after the session I began to eat--I just knew that I would be able to eat, and my energy levels soared. My symptoms were greatly reduced for two weeks, and any reactions experienced were short-lived. Currently I'm experiencing combinations of reactions because once I begin to eat I become bolder about experimenting with different foods, and if I begin to experience allergic reactions I become reluctant to retreat to a steady, "safe" diet of chicken and lettuce. Symptoms tend to compile as I become compelled to eat, and I experience panic, fatigue, and swelling. But I believe it's critical that I attempt to eat a greater variety of foods despite my reactions, and it's important that I take the risks because the alternative is starvation. Holotropic Breathwork makes this possible because I learn that I can eat for a period of time, and despite my current state of reactivity, I'm confident in the potential of Holotropic Breathwork to profoundly impact my psyche and bear upon my healing process. But I'm also convinced that the skill and dedication of Ted and David have contributed significantly to my success, and I feel extremely lucky to have entered into this process with them.”

“The choice feels as old as being born. I don't have to prove I was right or be afraid of making a mistake. <> As long as I choose to live my life from my heart and have faith and trust in God, everything will be OK. It is when I try to control things that are really in His hands that I get into trouble. <> I have to let go of trying to understand my mother not wanting me. I don't have to make up to anyone or owe anyone for being here because God says I have a right to be here and that's all that matters! <> Let go of the need for being picked, or chosen or special. As long as God says I have a right to be here, I can give up the need to be special. Also, I can let go of the better and worse than thing. I don't need to do that anymore to justify my existence. (I picked men with low self-esteem who I saw as being better than me; I figured I could build them up so they would need me to feel good about themselves.) <> I don't want God to think that I am special. I want Him to love everyone the same. We are all the same. No one is better or worse than anyone else. <> I don't have to be afraid to love again. I saw the tremendous fear of loving again because I felt I was wrong for choosing a man over my mom. I don't have to risk being totally abandoned if I love and let myself be loved, because God is always with me. <> I have to let go of playing the victim and feeling sorry for myself. Just like I don't owe anyone for my existence, no one owes anything to me. Everyone has a right to live their own life. <> If I trust in God, everything is OK. I don't need to know the reason for everything; I just need to trust God. <> There is exactly the right amount of time in life that I need. No more and no less.”

“I want to say thank you for providing the safe space for breathworks and also for all the kindnesses you have shown me. I had a glimpse of the power of the work today, as I was stuck for over an hour in bumper-to-bumper traffic on the Cross-Bronx expressway (the road from Hell). I found myself doing tonglen for all the other people caught in that snarl (both sides). By the time I crossed the George Washington Bridge, I was so high, all I could do was rejoice in life. I owe that (somewhat different from my typical) response to such traffic to the experience I had Saturday. It's deep healing work.”

“That was some workshop Saturday. Early in the afternoon there was an interval where I thought to myself, "What am I doing here?" Somehow I no longer saw the point to it. But sitting changed all that. For me sitting seems to be a very powerful experience. To witness one of my fellow humans going through such powerful inner experiences, then maybe resting a bit, then launching into some other inner process... I feel such incredibly strong empathy then. This must be good for the soul.”

“My sessions were basically about how I would be able to save my relationship. I did not realize yet that I needed to save myself, not my relationship. After deciding that the relationship would end, I did not feel that it was over yet. I could not face the truth yet. I could not let go. The universe was about to place another wonderful gift in my path. Express mail via my therapist, Holotropic Breathwork was now my next journey. I thought HUH? Holo what? Ok, I will be there. I started to let go. I decided to trust the universe and my therapist completely on this one. I would like to share with you now what my experience at the Breathwork workshop was like. To share this is to join with everyone else that is holding back and not letting go. This is my way of connecting myself with everyone else in the universe and hoping that this gift will one day be placed on your path too. My first thought while driving to the workshop was, what the hell am I getting myself into. Do I really want to know what is causing me so much pain in my life? Am I just going to make things worse if I open up a new can of worms? Maybe it's not too late to turn around and go home. I hoped that I would get lost and not make it there in time. I always get lost, I am lousy with directions, but the universe had different plans for me. I got there just in time, not one wrong turn, damn it. I signed in and met another wonderful gift named Vicki. I sat through the lecture and was excited yet scared and wondered if it was still too late to come up with an excuse to go home. I partnered up, and went on my new journey. I started my breathing and started to feel the transition. I would not let go. The next thing I knew, Vicky told me to close my eyes and to breathe. Vicky lay down on the floor next to me held my hand and took breaths along with me. It was helpful to me to have a spiritual helping hand to get started. Thank you Vicky. The music was incredible. There she was -- my healer, a beautiful African goddess. She was tall, slender and dark, and graceful and dancing up a storm as we all sat around a fire. I felt a connection to her like I only felt with my companion. The connection was non-sexual. It was like running into an old friend. She was so mystical; I could not get over how at peace I felt in her presence. She told me that I could heal myself and that everything would be OK. She caressed my face and disappeared. I noticed then that I felt an energy running through my body like I never felt before in my life. I saw the energy coming out of my hands and fingertips. I rubbed my hands together and blew air into the palms of my hands. I saw the energy in my breath. I began to touch my body all over calmly. I had begun to heal myself and it felt better than any medication I had ever taken. I felt so at peace that I started to come down from that experience. I thought that it was over. I started to breath again. I wanted to stay where I was. Suddenly, I started to experience something that happened to me when I was two and a half years old. I knew that I had abandonment issues that came up in the past and it was this same experience again. However, this time it was different. I was not thinking about it. I was there reliving it all over again. I saw my brothers and sisters that were left behind when my mother came to the United States. I saw my grandmother and my mother walking away from us. I was crying for my loss. I was crying for my loneliness. I noticed for the first time about this experience the one thing I had never noticed before -- my mother was crying too. I felt so much compassion for her hurt. I realized that she did not want to leave us there. She was suffering too. I was not a bad boy. I was not ugly or unwanted. My mother wanted me, she had to make tough choices, and for whatever reasons she had to leave some of us behind. I now remember her telling us that she had to bring the sickly ones with her first because they needed tending. I was a good boy and I was healthy and strong. Unfortunately I did not know this as a two year old. Now I know my healing has started. I am feeling more complete than I ever felt in my life, alone or with a companion. I am letting go. It feels wonderful to want to be with myself, alone or with company. Now I value everyone and everything in my life, especially myself. After I cried for my mother I started crying for myself again. I went from one experience to another. What a roller coaster ride. I was now very sad and upset. Why? Why me? Why did they do this to me? Why did they choose to hurt me? I sobbed like I never did before. I was now starting to heal from the sexual abuse I experienced as a child. The shame, guilt, hurt held me back. I was always afraid to hold my head up. I felt like I was hiding. I could not be found out, or all the hard work and the image that I had worked so hard to accomplish would be gone. While in my breathwork I dealt with it all. The sex abuse was a pattern that was running like clockwork through my large family. My shame was not just from feeling like I was responsible for what was done to me. My shame was also for my part in keeping the pattern of abuse running its course through our family. I cried and cried; then I stopped crying. I just lay there and stared at the ceiling. I started to go into the numb state of mind that I would go into when thinking about the sex abuse. Except this time, it all made sense to me. Why did I do what I did? Why did my brothers and sister do to me what they did? It's that damn pattern we kept on repeating. It's all we knew. It was wrong, but it's all we knew. We hurt each other. I realized that I had to forgive my brothers and sister for what happened between us. If I could not forgive them then I could not forgive myself. I can now forgive myself. Someday, I will make peace with my younger brother. When the time is right the universe will put the task in our paths. What a breakthrough this was. We had discussed prior to the breathwork that if it were awkward to have physical contact with your therapist this would be considered, and we agreed to avoid the contact if it was not OK with me. I had agreed that it would be OK. Now as I lay there I realized that Ted was lying next to me. I felt startled and awkward. I noticed that the awkwardness came from my fear of feeling a sexual attraction to him. I realized at the moment that Ted was my therapist and that the sexual awkwardness was my own and that I would have to deal with it and respect the both of us. Once I got past this I looked at him and saw him as the healer that he is. I remembered him lying next to everyone else at one point or another to comfort and help heal everyone there. The experience that I had with Ted at that moment was one of great importance. I realized that from being a sex abuse victim I kept myself at a distance from so many people, because I always approached many people with feelings and thoughts of sexual overtones. These are my issues. I learned that as sexual as humans are, not everyone that comes into my life has to be or wants to be sexual with me. I now feel that I can analyze every situation as it comes along. I can begin to approach people in different situations and enjoy their company for who and whatever reason they are there for, and to respect them and myself. The closing gathering in the circle at the end was a bit overwhelming for me. I was feeling kind of ashamed and guilty for having shared so much with my therapist. I felt tired and could not wait to get out of there as soon as possible. I was not going to share at the end. I chose to stay silent. The person sitting next to me asked me if I had spoken yet. I said no and shared some things but not others. I felt a little better, yet very tired. When we were done I spoke to the young lady that asked me if I had spoken yet. I thanked her for waking me up. I told her that I appreciated the wake up call. She told me that I was welcome. I know I have so much more to work on; my healing has just begun. I feel very excited about the new way that I have found to work on my healing process. My journey continues and so will the process of healing and letting go. I accept all that the universe has installed for me.”

“Thank you for your dedication to the work that you do. It was an incredible session for me....I was able to go deeeeeep into release of anger and rage. --first it startled me that it was there and ----then it startled me as to how much was there. There is more space for me now. :) yay!”

“I knew that I didn't want this experience to be like the one I had at Kripalu where I was left with the feeling or sense that there was no one there for me after experiencing so much pain, grief and sadness. I already knew this would be a safer time for me because of the facilitators. I was also determined to choose my partner for an optimal experience. When I chose Gail she said to me with tears in her eyes that she was very touched that I asked her to work with me. I knew this person with the kind face was the right one. The session was 3 hours long with this incredible evocative music. I did my breathing in the AM starting around 11. I started out by connecting with Gail and the facilitators and told Gail that I may need her to hold my hands or to hold me at some point. She was touched again by this information. It took me close to an hour, I would guess of deep breathing to get into the process. I keep envisioning Gail's face and I knew she was there for me. I felt the vibration and tetany building in my arms and some in my legs, but it was not painful like it was during my first experience. My arms eventually needed to rise up and I felt myself reaching for something, without effort (weightlessly), way above me. My breathing got faster and deeper using my whole body (arching and writhing) to breathe with and I suddenly passed out or fell into a deep sleep for I don't know how long. When I woke from this there was enormous energy streaming throughout my whole body. It felt like bliss or ecstasy! I continued in this state for a long time. I remember lifting my head up off the mat while reaching out and suddenly realized that I no longer had to breathe. I could stop breathing for a very long time, almost indefinitely it felt. "I could die right now and it would be delightful." I found this to be very funny and started to laugh. I stopped breathing a number of times and had the same reaction. The music began to swoon me and the bliss was more powerful. I spent the next hour or so feeling connected with myself and also feeling connected to the entire universe at the same time. I thought about reaching out to Gail at this point, but then decided that I didn't need to do that just yet and that I was probably thinking more about her needs, wanting to bring her into the experience. A while longer I decided it was time to reach out my hand to her and she held my hand with both of hers with tears streaming down her face. I felt very young at this point and felt that my mommy was there to be with me and support me. It was like David's experience at the end of A.I. when he finally reconnected with his "mother" after centuries of searching for her. Gail and I gazed at each other for a while and then Patty came by to join in. It was all very wonderful. I then went into a fetal position, curled up with my stuffed animal and drifted off into a blissful sleep for the last part of my journey. I continued to be in an expanded state for the rest of the day.”

“The room is quiet, the curtains drawn. I put on my blindfold. But inside the curtains are parted and all the characters are present -- they commingle, they interact with one another -- feelings bring up thoughts, thoughts bring up feelings. Life is beautiful, just as it is -- and I want to share that with everyone. I feel myself in deep rest and contemplation at the same time. In fact, my head hurts from this state of observing my many feelings and thoughts, but I trust in the process. There are times when I am overcome by deep emotion and the music lets me hold on to the feelings, and even though a part of me is judging and saying, you don't have to indulge in these feelings, I continue to cry, because it feels good to weep. The music is an amazing catalyst for letting my feelings exist. (Writing this a day after my Breathwork it is amazing to me how the different parts of me are making themselves known to my conscious mind.) I was in a place where I could observe and then later decipher and understand myself better. Seeing the many facets of the whole personality, I can now love and accept the parts of me that I repress. I feel much more acceptance of myself, and feel less fragmented. I guess when you can learn to love the parts of you that make up the whole, there is more understanding and ability to change. I am completely amazed at how the music (which was exquisitely wonderful and complex, and sweet and deep and gorgeous) somehow created space in my mind to relax and feel myself being in my being. I am really, really grateful for this process and thank all those aiding in this beautiful, soulful work.”

“The workshop was so helpful! The people were awesome! I am feeling so much better and with so much energy! It really made my issues clearer and what I need to continue to work on; I am definitely not feeling stuck anymore -- just the opposite. Hope too see you again, as I am making it my intention to attend future workshops.”

“As I remember, it was a warm June day. I was seven years old and my mother was away in the hospital, just as she had been many times before. I was in the kitchen, while my older sister called the hospital to check on our mother's condition. They told her that my mother had died. I went into my mother's room to cry and to wait for my father's return home. I heard him come in the house and went to meet him. As I did, I saw him come towards me with anger in his eyes. I became frightened and ran back into the bedroom. My father started screaming at me, "You killed your mother, you killed your mother" and he began beating me. Fortunately, a neighbor who heard the screaming came into the house and pulled him off me. She held me and comforted me. Somehow, we all made it through the funeral and tried to establish a life. Since there was no one to take care of me, I spent much time alone. My father worked constantly and my sister, who was only sixteen, was coping as best she could. After a year, my sister married and left to start her own family and my father remarried. My stepmother had three children of her own and we became a new family. It was very difficult. I was very strong willed and punished for it. Often my stepmother and father would tell me that "your own mother said you were no good from the day you were born, so how could you be any good to us?" I grew to believe that my real mother did not love me. Only now, can I understand, I also believed I was entirely unlovable. As I got older, I lived my life as closed and as controlled as possible. My romantic relationships were not good; I always had low paying jobs and didn't live in the best places. I lived with emotional pain and depression, but could not understand why. I thought, as my parents had told me, "that I was just ungrateful and didn't appreciate what I had." Finally, I reached a point where I knew that something had to change. It was at this point that I went into therapy. My therapist introduced me to Holotropic Breathwork and I was very skeptical about it. Since then, I have done Breathwork about ten times. Each experience opened a new door into my "self." I had shamanic experiences, relived childhood abuse and connected to the Divine. But my last Breathwork experience brought a healing that I never thought possible. During that session, I met the fear of abandonment that I lived with throughout my childhood and my life. It was only within this altered state, that I could have had the courage to experience such a horrendous feeling. It made me understand how much fear I lived with on a daily basis and gave me an appreciation for what I had accomplished in spite of it. The second part of this session brought me to my Mother. In the scene, she opened her arms to me and smiled. The smile that comes from someone whose love is overflowing and that love was for me. She said, "I am so proud of you." Even in that altered state, those words echoed throughout my being. An echo that healed years of suffering. At last, I knew I was loveable. My life has changed a lot since that Breathwork. I have a wonderful job, I own my home and I have become a Reiki practitioner. I am grateful to the people who have helped me throughout my healing journey and for the path that Holotropic Breathwork opened for me, a path to wholeness.”

“I have done breathwork countless times and every time the experience is different. My childhood experience was one of horror and terror. It was Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA). All the fear I internalized as a child followed me into adulthood. By the time I did my first breathwork I had several years of counseling. Breathwork has hit on a deeper level, allowing me to let go of so many fears. Things are so connected in the psyche. During the last workshop, I had the realization that I cut myself off from love because I could not trust. It all had to do with my past. I saw that particularly the left side of my body was affected. The left side is the receptive side of the body. I am blind in my left eye. Connected to the false belief "Trust is not safe" was the false belief "If I do trust and allow love it is limited in nature." At the same time the realization happened during the workshop, I saw who I really am – a beautiful child of the Great Spirit – and that there is no limitation. The experience was so beautiful; I saw that everything goes on without ending! I plan to do breathwork every chance I get. It has made such a difference in my life.”

“This was an amazing experience! For about an hour my body spontaneously moved to the music. It felt very fluid. My limbs were lifted and moved about with hardly any effort on my part. My hands were going in and out of various gestures, some kind of mudras, perhaps. Nothing could have prepared me for what happened next. It came into my awareness that my body posture and movements were those of an ape. A half hour later I was a big cat, maybe a jaguar. I moved like a big cat, even thought like a big cat. (By this time my human thoughts and concerns were gone. Awareness remained.) This evolutionary regression continued. Another animal I spent considerable time being was some kind of a lizard. It was fascinating to observe the micro movements of my limbs. The final incarnation was most bizarre. I must have become an amoeba or another unicellular microorganism. There was very little if any structure and organization to my form. I could move in any direction by extending my pseudopods. With each step down the evolutionary tree I felt more free and peaceful. The awareness remained throughout. In the end, my consciousness collapsed. There was no more judgment, effort, desire, resistance, definition. All that remained was an awareness of pure, nonspatial and nontemporal lightness of being.”

“Ever since my surgery 1 1/2 years ago, I have had problems with shortness of breath as well as experiencing pain every time I was able to get a deep breath. (This is different from the knot I had been feeling that got me to the workshop). Western medicine, accupuncture/herbs and chiropractic physicians have not been able to help with the pain and I thought this was something I was just going to have to accept and live with. I am delighted to tell you after yesterday's breathwork session I keep taking deep breaths and feel NO PAIN!! (I'll try not to hyperventilate!) It is so wonderful and I am so grateful to the both of you for continuing to host these wonderful breath workshops. I love you guys and, you know, I also just love to breathe..... (3 weeks later…) I am happy to say the pain is still gone! And, yes, you can add this account to your website if you wish.”

“Love is my only currency. AMEN! One hundred miles I have driven this morning to breathe – to breathe hard and fast – to breathe the first breath – the first breath. The original breath. This morning I am looking for something I know I will find. I need to find a part of myself – which part I don't know. One hundred miles and more – one hundred thousand miles and thirty-eight years and today I will – this I know – find what I am looking for. And now the breathing is done. I sat second and breathed first. The mandalas are almost complete and the late-day sun is reaching its long arm down the table. There is ease and peace as though we have all been through some ordeal or event. I got what I came for. I looked into God's eye. It was a yellow-orange eye and yet a mirror as well. I asked the question and heard in my own voice that I knew the answer already. God was curt (Kurt) with me. And instant. He also showed me a key – or perhaps showed me the key. I have no doubt the key is mine. An image not to lock something up but to release something. To unlock God's love. The truth …. The truth: that to maintain the illusion of separation takes more energy than to accept that we are all one – than to live the unity.”

“Thank you so much for holding the workshop this weekend! I had a very positive, affirming experience, which is just what I needed at this time… I have been noticing subtle reverberations from the experience these past few days; in brief, I feel that the self-doubt that I have been carrying around with me for many years has been released.”

“Let me thank you, one more time, for giving me the opportunity to participate in your Saturday's "Focus" workshop. It was a very emotional experience which has already influenced significantly my life in so many respects. The breathwork session affected me very profoundly in a way that I am only beginning to realize. I feel the process initiated during breathwork is slowly developing but it runs mostly on an unconscious level. And, I think, my experience, so far, is just the "tip of the iceberg" with much more to explore. It looks like the first part affected is a very outer layer of the unconscious mind (sorry if this sounds unclear but I've never received any training in psychology, so in my layman view, a mind has a layered structure). I was very pleased with the workshop ambiance which you masterfully created. Thanks to a welcoming, friendly and relaxed atmosphere I had a chance to meet bunch of nice, outgoing people. It felt great to spend some time with the like-minded individuals.”

“I was never heard, given attention to during my childhood. As an adult I attach this need to my current relationships, especially my past boyfriend. He is unable to give me what I need just like my mother. While attending a breathwork workshop in December 2005 ( Morristown ) I took one of his phone calls right before breathing. We were discussing why it was so hard for him to keep his promises and connect emotionally in the relationship. One of his replies stayed with me -- he said he didn't know how. During my breathing I saw myself over a crib looking at a baby; the baby turned out to be me, while the adult changed into my mother. I felt her feelings, how she felt uncertain about how to care for me. I also felt her want. She really wanted to care for me but didn't know how. After this session I saw and felt differently about my ex-boyfriend. I didn't take his actions so personally. Breathwork helped me to clarify that it wasn't about me but about him. In turn, my self-esteem and self-worth increased a bit which helps me to have a clear mind in making decisions about this relationship. In another recent breathwork session I experienced tremendous pain in my chest/heart area. I felt like I couldn't breathe, like I was choking, but in reality I couldn't push past the pain. It was too much to bear to deal with in my current life. I continued breathing, feeling the strong emotions, which then broke off to sadness and tears. I was crying for the attention I wanted, the hugs and touch I yearned for but never received, for never being heard. This also brought up thoughts about my four year old and how guilty I feel when I am not able to give all of the attention she demands. This was a very strong pain/feeling. After this release, I started to continue to breathe to continue in my journey, but the person next to me was screaming and releasing her pain, which triggered me. I became upset that I couldn't get what I wanted and was being overshadowed by her screaming, just like my childhood. Everyone else in my family was somehow heard but not me. My needs were never recognized. I decided to block her out by putting my fingers in my ears and throwing a tantrum with my feet. After a while I began to laugh; somehow it felt good to block her out and ignore her. I didn't have to pay attention to her and instead focused on my needs. That felt good. At the end of the breathwork I was able to see how my childhood affects my perception as a mother. I condemn myself for not meeting all of my daughter's requests for attention, and don't honor the good things I do. I did receive a very good important feedback from one of the other attendees. She suggested I ask myself, if I had myself as a mother would I like me as a mother. I couldn't say no since I do feel I do my best as a mother.”

“I wanted to say thank you for leading the breathwork sessions in the way that you do. It felt really safe and the environment was one of holding. For me, the lack of holding in my early environment never allowed me to touch into some of the primitive aspects of my self that I think I touched into on Saturday. Although the doubter has arrived to coax me into doubting my experience, I do have some basic trust. Maybe I can check in with you after I finish my appreciation of you and Jane for creating such a space for all. Even before and after sessions there was the kind of support that was fresh and clear and objective. Some of the things that came up at the end were taken with such delicacy, strength, understanding and true support. It is inspiring to see one's work in the world be so in tune with what is needed. So the tetany was a big part of my experience. Even when other things were happening, it was there. At least in my hands, sometimes in the background. There were only 2 times that the tetany seemed to go. Once when my body had a felt sense of my animal soul wanting to express itself. As my body became something of an expression of that, the tetany disappeared. It came back to my hands, knees, inner ankles, diaphragm, solar plexus, whole center zone/core, and it all seemed to pour into my navel in a very contracted and painful way. I felt frozen like that for quite a while, and something came to me about nourishment and I knew in my whole system something about that. I fell into the big Cry. It seemed to go on for ever, and ever, and ever. I can almost feel as though the after affects are still in me in a subtle way like the very end of a bell that you can't quite hear the edge of. I have worked with different aspects of nourishment for a long time in many ways, and have had lots and lots of tears. They seemed to be different tears than the tears of last Saturday. The tears of last Saturday were tears of the whole body and the tears of the past were tears of the head -- more about ideas and thoughts about my childhood, rather than a felt sense of it. Saturday, there was a felt sense which I didn't even have thoughts or ideas about (until after) and the tears came in response to that felt sense. It was whole and rounded. Maybe acceptance allowed the body tears or maybe the body tears allowed acceptance - either way, I love it! I love it because something in me feels more settled.”

“Thank you for having this great workshop. I experienced a definite change from normal waking consciousness. I don't know how to qualify or quantify the experience. While doing the breathing, after an unknown length of time, the breathing seemed to take over. As I observed the experience, I seemed to start making spontaneous humming sounds that went along with the music. As I watched this going on, I felt detached, like I was observing it, and at the same time felt great joy, possibly bliss, when certain frequencies were intoned. Occasionally coordinated with this were flashes of light and colors of aqua blue and green. I didn't experience much mental processing like I do when taking mushrooms or peyote. After, there was a wonderful feeling of calm; the mind wasn't frantically running from one thought to the next. Very peaceful and this has lasted for many days now.”

“I want to document my experience at your Focus Breathwork workshop. I feel it was an amazing experience of great value to me on multiple levels. From the beginning, I put substantial effort into the circular breathing… I gave voice to my exhales, which became simple sounds rather than words... Though I do not believe I had a good sense of time, I would say that within 15 minutes, I was experiencing tetany of the hands… and then of both arms, eventually followed by a general tingling lack of touch sensation throughout the body surface. In your introduction, you had asked us to find within us anything that might inhibit our focus on breathing. I found some feelings of anger that were distracting me, but then used the thoughts around them to actually focus myself. Once the tetany took hold, each of those thoughts repeated in my head brought an experience of anger and sadness with the energy moving from my thoracic region, mainly third and second chakras, out of my body with my voice. I felt these as gentle, pleasant catharses, without the rigor and force of the more abrupt emotional purgings to which I had become accustomed in other therapies. I found my brain functioning primarily as an observer, with its only real task in the exercise to respond when my body felt a need for more breath (and in one instance, water)… The observer brain also was quite aware of the gradual cleansing of anger and sadness from my thorax. In fact, a few times it assessed that the thoracic region was quite clear, but since the purging was such a pleasant experience, decided to ask my body to go back with more breath, to see if any negative stuff remained. After a time, it was convinced that nothing remained, and completely let my body do whatever it wanted, much in the spirit of my recent work to recognize that my body had sufficient intelligence to make its own decisions in what it needed to heal and how to get it. To my surprise, my legs started moving. They remained flat upon the mat, but first one hip pulled its leg up into the body with the other hip further extending its leg, then the two hips reversed themselves. The result was an experience of "pumping." In fact, the observer brain sensed that more anger and pain were being pumped up from my lower body. Indeed, my voice was flowing with new and unexpected emotion. This continued until once again I felt well cleansed of anger and sadness. At this point, I sensed a change in the music was signaling the beginning of a gradual end of the exercise. I relaxed my breathing and became aware of a filling sense of beauty – in my body, in the purging process, in my demeanor. All was beautiful. And peaceful. I felt that my eyes were open, though the eye-mask was effective in keeping out any noticeable light. I was looking at the ceiling, which I created to be almost ornately detailed with a rich and pleasant pattern. In its center appeared a very large circular, bright purple creation that had nearly the look and texture of crepe paper, much like some huge flower. After a moment, at its center slowly appeared a face. It was a caricature representation, but I was not aware of comedy or negative distortion. In fact, it was quite beautiful. There were a few words, and much feeling exchanged. I recall soothing words such as, "It's okay." There was an overriding feeling of harmony and joy. I slowly came out of this altered state with a smile on my face and in my mind. My world was truly beautiful. After a break, I assumed my new role as sitter. After a short while a thought ran through my head, and I removed my socks and began to feel my feet with my fingertips. I explored a neuropathy that had taken over my feet about three months before – a lack of sensation along the distal edges of both feet, which extended from the fifth digit through the heel and up my leg, fading out near the calf muscle. I had seen a neurologist who, after an EMG and NCV, had declared the involved nerves completely healthy. With this and the blood work and other tests performed by my primary physician, there was simply no apparent (western medical) reason for the neuropathy. Another practitioner's assessment, and my own after reading John Sarno's "The Mind-Body Prescription" to which he referred me, was a psychogenic response to unacceptable, irresolvable tension. I was sure I knew what that tension was, and it had been associated with the anger feelings on which I had been focusing. As I now felt my feet, my subjective evaluation was that in my left foot, the more affected of the two, the neuropathy had been reduced by about 50%. In my right foot, the less affected, the neuropathy was about 80% gone. I was not really shocked, somehow, but I was certainly elated. This was a huge event! A significant physical disability had just been substantially reversed in 80 minutes! It would be reasonably easy to believe that the blood CO2 levels, lowered by the breathing, allowed a re-oxygenation of the nerve endings, re-establishing sensation. However, subjectively I believe there were two other key elements involved. First is the attainment of a spiritual belief that everything truly was "okay," as the face in my vision told me. Second is the belief that the body has sufficient intelligence to heal itself, and can do so when given the latitude and when the cause of the dis-ease is psychogenic. My feeling is that no reversal of the neuropathy would have occurred without those two firm beliefs. After several months, the current status remains 100% recovery for both feet. That first workshop and the three since have been wonderful, Ted. I have learned a great deal, and clearly experienced therapeutic gains of immense value. I look forward to the continued use of Breathwork on my life path. It really works! THANK YOU!!”

“I attended my first Breathwork group experience yesterday in Fairfield, NJ. It's based upon Stan Grof's Holotropic Breathwork, and I guess it could be called 'H B Express'. After following Ted's instructions for approximately an hour (during the ninety-minute session), I began to feel my body beginning to vibrate in a low frequency rumble like the speaker in a subwoofer. As the sensation increased, I became very cold and almost weightless. I began to 'see' muted brightness from behind my closed eyelids and under my sleepers blindfold. A face similar to ones carved into an African tribal mask appeared briefly and then I was introduced to something that all of my previous experience, and any words I might try to compare it to, couldn't even begin to describe. As I melted into the experience, I was given what I can only describe as an emotional (not visual) sense of the connection we all share with, and within, the kosmos; as if I was being dipped into the ocean of kosmic consciousness and allowed to feel the intimate unity I share with all that exists. I was still well aware of my surroundings, of some of the noise in the room, and knew that I was expressing emotions of joy on my face. I was even aware of using facial muscles I'd rarely, if ever, used before. As the music gradually became quiet, I realized that I had to leave that place in order not to selfishly encroach upon other's time in the group. As I reluctantly withdrew from the connection, I began to compare where I had gone with where I knew I had to return, and I began to weep through my joy. I was simultaneously elated at the exquisite beauty of the place I'd visited, and saddened at being torn away from my long anticipated connection to the 'all'. Come to think of it, I was not only connected, I was the connection, and felt as if once I ceased being the connection, humanity would in some small way become disconnected also. I wondered at the negative consequences of my return upon the rest of us… in the room, and everywhere else on the planet. Conscious now of Ted sitting near me, I continued slowly coming back, still vibrating at a low frequency but with decreasing amplitude. In a few more minutes I was totally 'disconnected', but the vibration continued as an echo, or as diminishing waves on the shore of the experience. It occurred to me that those on the other side of the connection were sad to see me go, and were also trying to hold on to our connection for a little while longer. It was a few more minutes before I could sit up and realize that I had been sweating and felt chilly. Ted welcomed me back, before I could say much more than express myself in my usual biker expletives, as if he already knew where I had gone. It was the expression on his face, and in his eyes: "Pretty neat, huh?" I was vibrating quite a bit after I'd stood up, concentrating on walking into the next room where others had already gathered, still trying to get a handle on the meaning of my experience. It took quite a while for the vibration to subside completely, and for my standing balance to return, although someone remarked that I looked very relaxed, and "at peace". My voice was still quivering when it became time to describe to others where I'd gone, and words just had no meaning in this particular context. People who know me well know that if I have nothing else, I always have plenty of words. (If you're still reading along with me, you'll notice that my words have danced around the core of my experience, simply because there are really no words to adequately describe it.) The thing I find most difficult about being this particular human, at this particular time in human history, is the pathological disconnection that exists between us all. It's as if we're all unaware that we live on the muted edge of a vast expanse of consciousness, which we're terrified to explore; unaware that we are all connected in the waves, and troughs, and foam, and beautiful curls of surf and mist in an oceanic unity of consciousness; all of us like fish, believing that none of us can swim. "Can I touch your spirit with my spirit?" "No, you'd better not". If we are going to survive as a species, something has to happen soon to reconnect us. There is an insufficient amount of deep time for us to gradually evolve. What will suddenly move us to the center of consciousness so we can not only feel the connection we have to each other and to the kosmos, but also so that we can all BE the connection? I don't know. But the taste of ONE just given to me has sure whet my appetite for more!”

“Yesterday I went to my third breathwork group session with an expectation to repeat the experience I'd had during my first session, over a month ago. During that first session I experienced the emotional hallucination of being dipped as a droplet of individual awareness into the vast ocean of unity consciousness. Yeah, Wow! My second session some weeks later resulted in nothing happening; no not nothing I could remember, or nothing I could interpret, or nothing that would change into something in a week or more. Nothing happened! Well into my third session yesterday, my hands felt weightless so I let them float in mid-air. And they tingled as if I was picking up the beautiful music through my fingertips. My arms began the same low rumbling vibration as during the first session; a trembling which gradually spread throughout my body. "Okay… so far, so good. I'm ready now, so send me on my way to that vast ocean of consciousness." Nothing's happening… I feel myself getting pissed off. I remember that I've been advised to inhibit any expectations I might have going in, so I try to comply. But then I begin to argue that this advice doesn't know how I operate. I choose to insert myself into the process and I begin to chant in my mind, to the rhythm of my breathing, "I want to go back! Why can't I go back! I want to go back! Why can't I go back!" My determination builds as I alter the chant slightly in order to stay focused like a laser on my rebellious expectations. Then a shift happens, which I will not be able to put into meaningful words, and I begin to experience the human condition as it is on its exterior and during this historical period in time. It's isolated from consciousness, devoid of intimacy, hypocritical about love, detached from sanity, at war with its inner self and its outer cosmos; totally pathological in its behavior. I say to the director of this experience, "I already know about all this bullshit. You're showing me something I'm hoping to escape from during this session. Show me what I came here to see!" Then another shift occurred; I began to experience the first wave of what would become multiple waves, each with slightly different points of view, of an awareness of the essential interior consciousness of humans, using myself as a focal point. After the first wave I admitted that in a perfect world these interior attributes would be useful to explore more fully, but at some other time. After the second wave I could see how my attention could be momentarily distracted from my insistence on returning to the ALL, but I was still somewhat determined to continue. After the third wave I began to release my insistence a bit and began to wonder if I should focus a bit more willingly on what I was being shown… After each deeper and more profound wave washed over me I willingly surrendered my expectations to its overwhelming weight-of-proof and began to laugh at my abject ignorance, and at the seeming infinity of the depth of layer upon layer; of detail after detail of the exquisite beauty and glorious potential at the core of the human being. "Okay" I responded. "What you're showing me is only potential. I don't know any humans who are willing to display such intrinsic infinite potential. That's why I came to be dipped again in You!" Without interruption the waves continued, but now they focused more on my own interior, and on its infinite potential. I was given an opportunity to dip my individual ego into the ocean of its local body of consciousness, and I took it. Although it was a smaller body of consciousness, its depth and breadth was really quite astonishing! "Okay, I think I get it now." The waves continued to wash over me as if to say, "No, not yet you don't" As they continued to come, with all their weight, and depth, and detail, I began to think that there was enough information here to write a book. Maybe I should get the email address of everyone at the session today and send them a copy. Just then another shift happened and the waves not only became more intense with even greater detail but they began to occur without any distinction between them, and they were occurring outside of time itself. "Do you now see that your interior, and the interior of each human is nearly as vast, to your perception, as the interior of the collective you came here to again experience? And do you now see that time is immaterial; that you can dip your individual ego into your own vast ocean of consciousness, not only anytime you wish, but without respect to time itself, and swim in it constantly?" And still as I was being asked these questions, the 'waves' continued until I sobbed in humility and asked, because of their overwhelming intensity; an intensity without end, for them to gradually subside. "Okay, okay, okay… I was foolish to seek again for that, for which seeking is itself foolish. And for thinking that such an experience, which should be constant and continuous in its natural flow could be scheduled for this Sunday afternoon, And for judging my earthly existence in only the most shallow of exterior terms. I know now that the intimacy I've always sought with You and with others requires only a shift in awareness from this wonderful, individual, temporally located ego to the vast and timeless deep of my interior self, and that once reached it opens into a conduit; a river of collective human consciousness flowing endlessly and timelessly to the ocean of all consciousness. …And I understand even more fully now that somehow music is the universal language of it all." As the music became quieter, I removed my sleepers blindfold and stared at the ceiling with tears kissing my cheeks amazed at the journey I was having, both as a human being and as a spiritual being. Sitting up, I could still shift between the two, but the conduit was closing, and maintaining the connection was beginning to take more and more effort. Just the same, there was more than enough afterglow to bask in for another five or ten minutes, making it somewhat easier to return fully to daylight consciousness. With a few more moments to reflect, I started to think about my first session—my 'dip into the ocean'. I'd originally thought that there was no better place to go. Now I realize that there's really nowhere to go; I'm already (and have always been) here. Oh, and the book I knew I had more than enough material for vanished into thin air; only the feeling of accomplishment I would have had after writing it remains…”

“My first residency at college, Jane offered the breath work class. When I first heard about breath work, I was a bit skeptical about the whole idea of breathing and how that would cause someone to work through issues instead of just relax them. After that semester, I started a group at the Rape Recovery Center, in Utah, for men who are victims of sexual assault and abuse. During one of the sessions, a member talked about a powerful experience where he did an exercise very similar to breath work and the amazing results that he got. This was a few weeks before residency and It got me thinking about breath works and I started to read more about it. When I talked to Jane about the course, I was very nervous and had a lot of anxiety about it. When we got into the room, there were only 6 participants and 2 facilitators. I was very scared because I only knew 2 of the participants and didn't feel safe with the rest of the group except for one person. Since the person who assaulted me was a male, I didn't feel safe with a few of the participants and so I got partnered with a wonderful female who I knew and trusted. When i started breathing and relaxing, I had in mind what i wanted to work on, I wanted to go back and revisit my rape situation. I started out by revisiting the rape situation and I had an out of body experience and watched myself while i was being raped. I was finally able to let go of some of the anger that I had toward the person who raped me. I was screaming at him and just let it all go. When I came to, I relaxed a bit and drank some water and decided it was time to go back. This time I went back and watched the situation happen all over again. It was an out of body experience like the last time, except this time I was the third person. I was watching the rape situation with another person there, that other person was myself. I was able to comfort myself and give myself strength to get through the situation. I was finally able to feel like I was not alone during what happened to me. The third time that I went on my journey, I was able to see my future self, my future children, and my future clients. They were thanking me for being so strong and having the courage to go through the things that I did. They talked to me about the things that I went through and told me that they made me a better person in the long run. After all was said and done, I feel so much better and it has been a huge process in my recovery. It helped me to get back into individual therapy to grow from this experience. It also helped a few other people from my group grow from my experience and my journey in breath works.”

“The weekend at Yogaville was amazing. I will never forget it! Thank you for all you do, and I hope we will cross paths again in the future. I can honestly say it was life changing. You are both gifted in what you do, and I will be forever grateful.”

“I attended my first Holotropic Breathwork retreat last weekend facilitated by Ted Riskin and Jane Martin. I was literally blown away by the experience. During my session, I was able to access and be present with the emotional states accompanying two traumatic high school experiences, and I was able to "redo" one of those experiences in a way that enabled me to reclaim some personal power lost at the time. I also experienced some intense and deeply charged somatic releases that lasted for more than half of the session. These releases left me feeling calm and centered at first and later pretty raw and open but, ultimately, more energized. I feel transformed by the experience, like I now have access to a deeper part of my being formerly beyond my range and that I can be with others from this deeper place. While I felt slightly unsettled for several days afterward, I sense that my body / mind / heart system was merely in the process of reorganizing itself around this new equilibrium. As I look forward from here, I see that the Holotropic Breathwork session I experienced last weekend unleashed a powerful energy inside me and opened me to a depth of being that was just the tip of the iceberg. I know I have more work to do, and I have the sense that this work will ultimately lead to the integration of my body and mind within the heart so that I will feel more whole and so that I will function as a more unified and loving force rather than as a being pulling in different directions.”

“I am still on a spiritual high after yesterday. I hope to participate in another breath workshop in the near future. It was a beautiful journey. One that I will treasure.”

“My first experience was pretty limited — I saw a lot of yellow, remembered a few scenes from my childhood, but nothing traumatic like I was expecting. No traumas came over me. After I finished I thought, well, I didn't get that much out of this, but it was ok for my first time. Then, to my great surprise, for the following 4 weeks or so, I had so many memories resurface. My dreams were extremely vivid and colorful. I needed a LOT of sleep and rest just to stay grounded. A lot of energy moved out and through me and I had to take care of myself very intently so it could be transmuted. I can say after this whole process I feel much clearer about my direction in life, and I feel lighter and freer. I must have released things I wasn't aware of I was carrying, and I'm not aware what they were, it all happened in its own time and wisdom and at its own rate. All I know is I feel much lighter. Also my breathing is much easier now, and deeper. Thank you so much.”

“Just wanted to drop you this line to say thank you for yet another safe and loving space you created for us on Saturday. I appreciated all the small yet very thoughtful details -- like the beautiful array of colorful food -- the tissues -- the fabulous music -- the scented hand cream in the bathroom -- well all of it. But most of all , for allowing everyone to have their own experience without judging it.....your love and the love for your work shines through...”

“Please receive my warm well-wishing and deep gratitude to you. This past week — unbelievable that it's only been six days! — has continued to bear fruits of healing, insight and spaciousness. I was perhaps expecting a "come down" or an abrupt, harsh return to the hylotropic, or maybe storms of doubting the simplicity, beauty and efficacy of HB. My experience, rather, has been of continued, rich unfolding and delight. And all endogenously sourced! I believe (y)our expertise, experience and intention fed and feeds my process. Thank you for the clear container, the safe structures and making this work accessible. A tremendous weight has lifted from early attempts at self-initiation that proved traumatic lacking such supports. I feel a bit like a missionary for HB, continually sharing the theory and process with friends and family. I hope to have additional opportunities to work with you three — I like your dynamics — and also in other more intensive experiences.”

“I don't know what happened yesterday, but today I have been energetically happy, throwing out good "vibes" to all I meet, and I think it was because of the amazing experience of HB. Thank you, thank you. If we can all be happier, more peaceful, and connect (as you said), the world will be a better place, and if it's not, at least we will be."

"I did a holotropic session this past fall. That session was a catalyst for a transformative period of growth, a wave in which I'm still riding, and I want to say THANK YOU! For the sacred space provided, for facilitating, and most of all, for allowing someone like myself with a psychiatric history inclusive of 'psychosis' to participate. I was fearful I would be turned away if I was honest and this work and paradigm is a god send.  It's what I needed and feel like it offers great potential for the world and others who've experienced similar Emergencies.  I feel like the breathwork allowed for channels of my consciousness that needed to be revisited safely in order to heal and reconnect with myself, my spirit and my soul.  Your facilitation allowed me that opportunity and for that I'm ever grateful!

 

 

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